Monday, January 18, 2010

Giving up

This is the kind of day where I almost give up. It wouldn't be the first time. I have given up on my diets year after year. I know I am supposed to change my attitude and call it a "lifestyle change" but I am not fooling myself. I am trying to lose weight and I call that a diet.

I have succeeded and failed many times in my dieting career. In my adult life the most successful diet I ever did was the Atkins Diet (please don't judge me for joining that craze). That is when I got to my lowest weight as an adult. Someday I will blog about that fabulous bacon and cheese diet, but for now, just know that it worked. Then I went back to college and feasted on Jack in the Box at three in the morning and the delicious creations of the catering department I worked for.

Everytime I try to lose weight I give up. I start off well and then I don't stick with it. I fall back into bad habits and I make excuses for myself. Once again I had a weekend full of high fat and high calorie foods and it seems so much easier to say that this is how my body is meant to be. But I don't want it to be like this for the rest of my life. I don't want to go back to old habits and I don't want to have any excuses.

So I got up this morning and cut up vegetables for snacking. I had my banana and coffee for breakfast. I decided, AGAIN, to recommit myself, AGAIN. Every moment is a choice. Every moment is my decision.

Small goals for this week that will help:
1. No alcohol
2. No desserts

Cheers to a good week, for me and for you!


  1. Keep it up! I have had to give up those two things this week too. Alcohol is dangerous for me... I consume to much and then when I am drunk, I eat too much! And the chocolate basket in our office always seems to call my name around 2 in the afternoon.

    Have you ever thought of joining Weight Watchers? I did it last year with my mom and lost about 17 pounds... then I quit and regained half of it, so now I am trying to again. Something about how the program is worked for me... I still feel like I get to have my treats and I don't feel like I am starving myself. But it does take dedication to actually track!

  2. Atkins done correctly does work. You make me want to do my thing of saying no to sugar and white carbs. That one thing makes all the difference. I'm on with you, Erin.

  3. Small goals -- that's the way to do it!!! It may take longer for the weight to come off, but it will STAY off. You can do it!!!

    BTW, my dad has done the Body For Life diet for years. You follow a strict plan (5-6 small meals/day) for 6 days, but then you get the FREE day when you can eat anything. I think there is something to that!

    xo :)

  4. It really is a moment-by-moment choice. I have to ask myself: do I want chocolate, or do I want to work towards being a better me?